when no one seems to care...

Sun, 04 Jan 2004 02:46:30 GMT

new livejournal... a_static_radio

for seth...

Sat, 03 Jan 2004 03:44:07 GMT

My sweet little sethie I love you so much. I'm going to try to make a post just for you but i'm not good at this mushy love stuff. I think we're going to get married someday because i've never felt so strongly about someone as I do for you and the feeling you give me in the least amount of words is unexplainable. You're my star in a plain night sky and you're my sunshine on a gloomy day (I know i'm cheesy..) but anyways seth like I told you the other day if someone would have asked me if I'd fall in love with you someday my answer would have been no. However, I did fall in love with you and it's the greatest thing to EVER happen to me. Those few days that we kept fighting were the worst days of my life and I don't think i've ever felt so sad and helpless but we overcame it and now that everything is back to normal I love you just as much if not more than I already did. I'm going to wrap this up quick.. I love you seth and I always (and I mean always) love you. <3 always. Meegan

hello

Wed, 31 Dec 2003 00:58:51 GMT

Well i'm finally getting around to updating this lame journal. Nothing much has been happening except I turned 16 yesterday (December 29th) and after waiting a year and doing basically nothing to do with driving, i'll finally be starting drivers ed next week. Now I'm actually looking forward to getting my liscense. Not having to have my parents take me everywhere will be really nice for a change. I don't have a car yet but as of right now it looks like i'll be getting a honda cr-v. I really like those and from the beggining i've been wanting a small suv so yeah.

As for the love life i'm single and not searching at the moment. After Seth I think it's not even worth it anymore. But if you want to hook up.. you know where to find me.

I think i've written enough.. if you want to know anything else you can IM me at a static radio if I don't write anything else before 2004 I hope you all have a safe and happy new year :) <3 always.

I fell down and scaped my knee, and she smiled and handed me a band-aid. Ah, it's love.

Sun, 23 Nov 2003 04:29:26 GMT

Yo. I'm uh, updating the journal here and uh.. came across a doctor who appeared in quite poor health. I said "there's nothing that I can do for you, you can't do for yourself" he said, "oh yes you can just hold my hand, I think that that would help." So I sat with him awhile and I asked him how he felt..he said "I think I'm cured, no infact I'm sure. Thank you stranger for your therapetic smile."

So yeah, This is Todd keeping it real on my favorite emo kid texas best friend. Meh. Yeah...so...I need a tangible explanation of things, but nobody ever gives me one.

I looked up "cooter" in the dictionary..and it's a turtle that lives in Africa. So my friend Mario and I have decided to import one, and name it Cooter. So we can...caress the cooter Cooter. >:D

Erm, Todd's signing off the eh, Lj here. But I'd like a lj at some point so if anyone who reads this journal has one..you know...yeah give it to me?

Cheers.

hi again

Thu, 09 Oct 2003 20:15:06 GMT

Hey i'm in school right now and I havent written in this thing for forever. Rush's parents are getting divorced and he's been really busy because i guess he's moving in with his dad, so we aren't technically "together" right now. I still love him though so yeah. Today we had first and second period exams and im sad because that means no more speech :( but yeah I have to go before I get in trouble i'll write more when I get home. bye bye. <3 meegz

aloha!!

Sun, 14 Sep 2003 14:09:03 GMT

hey everybody you'll probably never read this because i get really lazy and dont update. sorry :/ I get to see my lover boy Rush today <3 We're going to go to the mall i'm excited woo hoo! Yesterday i got my hair done it's a dark, dark brown. i like it. school is getting more boring by the day, i'm sure you all know that. anywho i have to go because i gotta do my homework so i can go today. i <3 rush 08-31-03

<3

Sun, 31 Aug 2003 16:28:05 GMT

argh sorry it's been so freaking long since i've updated! I got to skate at the mall yesterday with rush and his friends justin and james. i've never had so much fun in my ENTIRE life. I tired to ollie off of a 4 foot loading dock (I may be exaggerating on the whole 4 feet thing..yeah) I didn't make it :( but i wasnt nervous to try it at all. Justin is one of the funniest kids i have EVER met in my entire life. It was the greatest mall trip i've ever had.

after the mall i went out to dinner at this place called pf chaings or something like that because it was my dads birthday..48 *eek* it was delish. I enjoyed it.

After that I came home and called up rush. i <3 him so much. i might get to see him tomorrow too :) :) :) and yeah i stayed on the phone with him til like 1:50

well i gotta go now. bye bye kiddies

school

Sat, 16 Aug 2003 20:17:23 GMT

sorry its been so long since ive updated. I went back to school on the 12th so yea. These are the classes i'm taking.
1st period: biology
2nd period: communication applications (speech)
3rd period: world geography
4th period: career connections

and yeah there is only 4 periods a day because we're on a block schedule and each class is 1 and 1/2 hours each.

well thats all cuz ive got to go. bye.

aloha

Thu, 07 Aug 2003 04:33:49 GMT

Hey sorry its been so long since an update :/ I'm going out with patrick now. woo hoo! He looks like ashton kutcher and yeah its madly awesome and I get to see him tomorrow. yay :) We're going to meet up at grapevine mills mall and just shop around and see legally blonde 2 even though i've already seen it and you can probably guess why we're going to see it. lol. well anyways got a new screen name.. X Puzzled Youth so IM me if you want to. bye bye

uhh yeah

Sun, 27 Jul 2003 22:24:53 GMT

new layout and icon. hope you guys like.

a short little update

Tue, 22 Jul 2003 16:31:01 GMT

welp its been awhile since an update. I broke up with zach a couple days ago meanings he and I went out for 1 month and 11 days. Now I have my eyes on patrick <3. I'm telling you kids he's the near perfect guy for any girl. but anyways i'm going to be in san antonio for a little vacation until sunday. I'm going to miss you all sooo very much! leave me comments to get back to! <3 meegz

im bored

Sat, 19 Jul 2003 05:52:06 GMT

x ] Spell your first name backwards - nageem
[ x ] Are you a homo - no
[ x ] Where do you live - dallas
[ x ] 4 words that sum you up - caring, loving, hyper, shy

DESCRIBE YOUR
[ x ] Wallet ? it says princess
[ x ] hairbrush- purple
[ x ] Toothbrush ? umm I cant remember
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily ? I havent worn jewelery in awhile but if I do I wear 2 rings on my right hand and earrings
[ x ] Pillow cover ? it has palm trees!!
[ x ] Blanket - I only use blankets during the winter
[ x ] Coffee cup - no coffee cup
[ x ] Sunglasses ? no sunglasses that I wear often
[ x ] Underwear ? white with little surfboards
[ x ] Shoes - not wearing shoes right now but i normally wear my vans or allstars or a pair of flip flops
[ x ] Handbag ? dont have one
[ x ] Favorite top ? uhh
[ x ] CD in stereo right now ? evanescence or all-american rejects
[ x ] Tattoos - none. but I want a star on my lower back
[ x ] Piercings - just my ears done once but I wanna get them done 2 more times and I wanna get a labret (middle of my lip) piercing
[ x ] What you are wearing now ? black cotton shorts and a white shirt
[ x ] Hair ? down
[ x ] Makeup ? mascara, green eyeshadow, silvery eyeliner on bottom, a little blush

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are)
[ x ] In my mouth - uhh
[ x ] In my head - im thinking about patrick and zach, mostly patrick
[ x ] Wishing - I was on the phone with patrick
[ x ] After this - talking online
[ x ] Talking to ? patrick
[ x ] Eating ? nothing
[ x ] Fetishes ? guys with brown hair and blue eyes
[ x ] If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason ? hmm
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now ? patrick
[ x ] Is next to you ? nobody
[ x ] Some of your favorite movies ? american pie 1 and 2, dude wheres my car
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month ? just skating more
[ x ] The last thing you ate ? potatoes, pees in a pod, and this meat stuff haha
[ x ] Something that you are deathly afraid of ? I dont really know
[ x ] Do you like candles ? yes
[ x ] Do you like hot wax ? no
[ x ] Do you like incense ? no
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood? eww no
[ x ] Do you believe in love ? yes
[ x ] Do you believe in soul mates - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in love at first sight - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven - yea
[ x ] Do you believe in forgiveness - yes
[ x ] Do you believe in God - yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die ? hmm I dunno
[ x ] Who is your worst enemy ? probably jenna reekie
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be ? a squirrel! I love squirrels!
[ x ] What is the latest you've ever stayed up ? 4:30 am?
[ x ] Ever been to Belgium ? no
[ x ] Can you eat with chopsticks - uh I dont really try that often
[ x ] What's your favorite coin - uh...
[ x ] What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to - uh..
[ x ] What are some of your favorite pig out foods ? funyuns!!
[ x ] What's something that you wish people would understand ? that not everybody is the same so we just gotta learn to deal with it
[ x ] What's something you wish you could understand better ? guys
[ x ] Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? all my friends back in nebraska. I miss you guys so much!!
[ x ] What's one thing that you wish could happen tomorrow? I wish that ill be able to kickflip tomorrow

what i'm doing today

Sat, 12 Jul 2003 19:46:06 GMT

well today I am going to the mall at 5 with caitlin and were gonna see legally blonde 2 and then shes gonna spend the night. I want zach to come but I dunno if he can.. so yea. i'm gonna go. I love zach! <3 squeegan

fixed up my lj

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 15:26:31 GMT

Alrightys I fixed up my livejournal. It looks way better now. :) but yeah I hope yall like it!

I love you zach!

sigh

Fri, 11 Jul 2003 04:30:14 GMT

yeah I know my livejournal really sucks so im gonna fix it. I love zach!

Thu, 10 Jul 2003 16:31:21 GMT

SqueeganTheGreat IM me now!

one month :)

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 15:06:17 GMT

GUESS WHAT EVERYBODY!!!

TODAY IS ZACH AND I'S ONE MONTH! YAY! I LOVE HIM SOO MUCH

Fri, 27 Jun 2003 20:54:01 GMT

one more time.. I LOVE ZACH

New lj layout

Fri, 27 Jun 2003 15:56:39 GMT

welp I changed my layout I couldnt get it to do exactly what I wanted so I suppose its ok. Tomorrow I get to go to Hurricane Harbor cuz our friends are gonna enter the surf competition thing. Well.. I think that's all. I love zach soooo freaking much! muah! bye kiddies.

another zach entry

Tue, 24 Jun 2003 04:10:50 GMT

welp I was supposed to see zach saturday night at the mall but we couldnt find him. turns out he was like 20 freaking feet from us and my mom even saw him! I'm soo totally bummed. I'm really wanting to kiss him and be able to cuddle with him. and it is official meegan is in love again! yes that is all i'm really tired so I think i'm gonna go get my "beauty sleep" I love you sooooooooo muchers zach! muah!

hello

Fri, 20 Jun 2003 14:32:07 GMT

well tonight I have to go to a wedding so I guess this should be interesting. but the best thing is tomorrow i'll hopefully get to see my zach! I love him soooooo much and i'm wanting to kiss him real bad right now. haha :P

That's all for this short little entry. see ya'll later.

My Zach

Thu, 12 Jun 2003 01:43:22 GMT

So yes i'm in love with Zach. Being with him has made me realize how bad of a boyfriend James was at times. Zach is so sweet and always makes me smile but James did practically nothing but try to argue with me. When I firsted started going out with James I was happy but now with Zach i'm happier than ever. I can't wait to see Zach because i'll never be able to stop holding him and kissing him. I know you're gonna get sick of hearing Zach this, Zach that so i'm gonna go. I love Zach sooooo much :) <3 meekee

Zak!

Tue, 10 Jun 2003 00:23:48 GMT

welpers i'm so happy i'm going out with zak now :D :D :D I'm most likely going to see him tomorrow so its gonna be a lot of fun ;) I think that's all for now folks. catch ya later. I love Zak so much <3

hello.. again

Sun, 08 Jun 2003 17:02:39 GMT

Well it's been awhile since an update. I've finally met someone I really like!! His name is Zak <333. He always makes me smile and I absolutely love talking to him. Gosh I love him so much. I might see him on Tuesday and i'm so excited :) I just wanna give him a bunch of kisses and hugs. yep. well uhm that's all I believe. I love Zak sososo much! IM me sometime kids.. flipxskateboards <3 always, meekee

oh the things that boredom will do

Mon, 26 May 2003 17:43:31 GMT

First off, what's your name? Meegan
Why did your parents name you that, and do you wish they hadn't? my mom liked the name I dunno

How old are you?
15

How old are you emotionally? (As in, do you think you handle your emotions pretty well and have sorted through most of them) I dont quite know

How about mentally?
dont know about that either

SEX, ETC.
Let's get this one over with- have you ever even had sex before? newp

If you're a virgin, do you plan on having sex before you get married? Why or why not? i'd prolly only have sex before im married if I found someone I could really trust

Are you straight, bisexual, gay, or lesbian? Have you ever questioned whether you really are this way? straight

Do you feel comfortable talking about sexual things or uncomfortable? comfortable its funny to hear what people have to say

Do you feel comfortable talking about sexual things regarding your own experiences, what turns you on, etc.? yes

Do you, or have you ever masturbated? no comment

Do you think it's okay for members of the sex opposite your own to masturbate and why or why not? its just something humans do for satisfaction

On a scale of 1-10, one being the least, and ten being the most, how perverted do you feel you are? 5

If you're a teenager, are your hormones making you undoubtedly horny? sorta

Have you ever had a sexual dream before, or "wet dream?" Feel free to describe. not that I know of

What do you think of pornography? Have you ever seen it? yea i've seen it

Do you have any fetishes or things that automatically start to turn you on? If so, what are they? hot guys that have just what I want haha :P

Are you flexible, or do flexible people turn you on? (If you don't understand how this question is sexual you probably never will.) um ok

How do sex scenes in movies make you feel? Disgusted? Hot? depends

Did you lie on, or avoid answering any of the above questions? yes

LOVE
Do you believe in love as a concept? Why or why not? yes

Do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend or crush? If so, who? newp im single

Do you love them? Why or why not? ahh

On a scale of 1-10, one being the least and ten being the most, how important is your boyfriend, girlfriend, or crush to you?

On a scale of 1-10, how important is the way your boyfriend's/girlfriend's/crush's family feel about you to you? --

If you family hated your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend, would you still go out with them? Why? yea cuz if I love somebody im not gonna care what my family thinks

DOES your family hate your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend? my family hated my ex boyfriend

Are you physically attracted to your crush, boyfriend, or girlfriend? Why or why not? --

Do you think The Beatles were high when they wrote the song, "All You Need is Love?" Possibly? I don't know.

How do you know when you love someone? I think about them all the time and I get butterflies in my stomach whenever I talk to them

Is love worth it? yes and no

FRIENDS
Who is/are your best friend/s of the opposite sex? i'm not really sure

Who is/are you best friend/s of the same sex?
kirsten and michelle

Name one or two people you know you would die for.
uh

On a scale of 1-10, how important are your friends to you?
7

Have you ever fallen in love with a friend? How did that work out, if you did? yea i've fallen in love with a guy friend

How well do your friends know you? Do you think they would still be your friends if they knew EVERYTHING, no exceptions, about you? If so, which friends? I would hope my friends would be here for me through thick and thin

Ten years from now, which friends do you hope to still be in touch with? Why? all of the most important ones

YOUR PSYCHE
Do you have any diagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? none

Do you have any undiagnosed mental disorders? If so, what? I'm pretty sure I have depression but i'm not gonna be all into getting diagonosed

If you do in fact have a diagnosed or even undiagnosed mental disorder, describe what it feels like and/or your personal experiences with it. I feel pretty low sometimes

Have you ever been to a therapist, psychiatrist, or psychologist before? If so, were they helpful to you? I went to a psychiatrist or something like that a long time ago

Do you think your dreams are a window into your soul? Or do they have any significance at all? uhh

How would you describe yourself mentally and psychologically? I'm just fine I guess

Do you feel insecure with your own person? Have a self-esteem problem? If so, why do you think you do? I have a selfesteem problem for sure

RELIGION AND PHILOSOPHY
What religion or system of beliefs, if any, do you subscribe to? i'm catholic

Is this a mainstream religion? I dunno

What do you think about non-mainstream religions? (Wicca, Hiduism, etc.?) I dont really know

How much do you actually know about non-mainstream religions? not a lot

Have you ever tried to convert someone to your own religion? Why or why not? no

What is your overall opinion of televangelists? uh

What is your opinion of evangelists in general? uh

One word can be said and mean many different things. In the
end, how important are words, really?

If you could ask God or whomever you choose as a supreme being one question, and only one, what would it be? (If you're an atheist just skip ahead.) im not really sure what I would ask

MUSIC
Is music important to you? Why or why not? omgosh yes

Do you sing? If so, do you sing well? yes i sing quite well

What instruments do you play, if any? I play geetar :D

Do you or have you ever written music before? yes

What do you think of Eminem? crappy rapper

In your opinion, what band is the best of all time? (Name a few if you can't decide.) anti flag most definately cant forget some of my other faves nirvana, rancid, the casualities

Now for the lightning round. Do you like...
Pop music: stuck by stacie orrico is an ok song
Rock music: Yes
Punk music: hell yea
Rap music: rap is crap
Hip-Hop/R&B: b2k is sexy
Country: lame
Jazz: a lil
Classical: naw
New Age: I dunno

What is one band/singer you absolutely love that no one else does or seems to have heard about? brandon d. from oofo

Pick up the nearest CD to you and write a random song lyric from it. "somewhere I belong" linkin park

MOVIES, TV, ETC.
What is your favorite tv show? I cant pick theres some good ones

What is your favorite movie? dude wheres my car, legally blonde

If someone made a movie about your life, do you think anyone would want to see it? maybe

What is your favorite TV character? Dunno

What is your favorite movie character? dunno

Favorite actor? ben stiller, adam sandler

Favorite actress? --

ISSUES
What is your stance on abortion? I dunno

What is your opinion on gay people being allowed to get married? it doesnt really matter

What is your opinion on gay couple adopting? doesnt matter

Do you have a political party affiliation? If so, what and why? politics shmolitics

What do you think about sex before marriage? yea